life is a journey…expect the unexpected !!! ;)

hi…hi…I have a new blog (again) hehehe

it’s in wordpress now…
click here to start reading…

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teteup baca blognya dedek yaaaaaaaaaa

If you’re deep in the woods, it can be hard to tell how far it is to the next clearing. Are those trees blocking your view? On the plus side (and you’re someone who sees the positive in nearly everything) the trees are really lovely. You feel like you’re a million miles from civilization, and you can think all kinds of new thoughts.

Also, sometimes it’s nice not to know exactly where you are…

…my travelling buddies (Novi and Liza) for the last 10 days are going home tomorrow…Thank you for everythings gals, I’m so happy that we finally able to travel together…Hope this is not the last one

And me, I’m continuing my trip to Vietnam…gonna meet Imme-my partner for the next 7 days ;)- in Hanoi…

signing out now,

*khao san road, bangkok, 02042006*

hei…I am in KL right now…Day 5 of my trip…Sempet nginep semalem di Batam (tempat Anggi), Batam panas bangeut bangeutttt ya, saya meleleh…Terus lanjut ke Singapore, nginep 1 malem di tempat Ochie…makasih ibu-ibu…We’re leaving for Phuket tomorrow…YUPPPIIIEEEE !!!

Ada temen saya yang nanya kenapa saya nggak pernah posting cerita-cerita travelling saya di blog…kalopun cerita, di blog saya yang dulu, paling cuman seadanya…Kenapa ya? Hmmmm…soalnya saya punya travelling journal sendiri, kayak scrapbook gitu, yang saya bisa seenaknya tempel apapun, gambar seabstrak apapun, coret-coret seancur apapun, lebih bisa mengekspresikan diri gitu…Blog kan cuman tulisan, nggak seru ah…Walaupun kecepatan update scrapbooknya nggak secepat kecepatan saya travelling, tapi lumayanlah…terakhir yang ada di scrapbook saya tuh baru pas ke Edinburgh…means masih ada ‘utang’ banyaaaaaaaaaaakkkk yang belom ditulis…Ntar, tunggu mood

Jadi, punteun ya teman-teman, yang udah pada sakau pengen baca cerita-cerita jalan-jalan saya (GR pisan, Dek !), dengan amat sangat menyesal nggak bisa baca di blog…

Have a great looonggg weekend

Today is my last day at the office…

LEGAAAAAAAAAAA … !!! hehehe…

Mau ke puncak besok; bbq dan safari night sama anak-anak…
And start my backpacking trip next week…

I am signing out

carpe diem,
dedek

Something bothers my mind lately…Not lately actually, been contemplating about it for some times now, but still can’t figure out what I want…Even though when later (I think) I know what I want, I’m still not sure whether I’m ready with the consequences of my choice (whatever it is…).

And at this moment of time, saya jadi makin sadar, betapa pentingnya berdoa…Minta petunjuk dari Sang Maha Segala, Sang Pemilik dan Penguasa…

Jujur, saya jarang berdoa…maksudnya berdoa yang minta sesuatu, specific, bener-bener dari hati…Shalat iya, cuman kebanyakan doa yang saya panjatkan adalah doa-doa standard, yang saya udah apal matiluarkepala, urut dari doaselamatduniaakhirat, doabuatpapamama, doamintayangterbaikdalamhidup, atau kalo mau ujian, doamakinkenceng, biarlulusnilaigakpentingberapaasalluluskarenamalesngulang, ya doa-doa gitu deh…

Kalo buat hal-hal lain dalam hidup, jujur, kadangan saya cuman take it for granted.  Buat banyak hal…Satu contoh aja, soal kerjaan…Hmmmm…Saya udah mulai kerja dari jaman saya kuliah tingkat 2, pindah-pindah mulu, dan baru untuk kerjaan saya yang terakhir ini saya harus ngelamar…Yang lain? Saya dilamaarrrrr… ;)  Terdengaer sombong sekali ya…Mungkiiiinnnn…Sedikiiiiittt tapi, dan saya nggak maksud begitu…Tapi kalo belagu, iya…bawaan lahir kayaknya emang…Maksud belagu ini, ya kalo nggak sreg, saya males lama-lama…Rezeki bisa dicari dimanasaja, kapansaja, toh..? 

Selain kerjaan, banyak lagi lah hal-hal yang saya cuman take it for granted, bahwa Tuhan akan selalu memberikan yang terbaik buat saya, tanpa harus saya minta…

But lately, I’ve been thinking…Mungkin terkadang kita harus minta ya...nggak bisa cuman pasrah aja, nunggu apa yang bakalan Tuhan kasih sama kita, seperti selama ini saya…
Minta!  Perkara setelah itu dikabulin apa nggak mah ya wallahualam…Yang penting minta dulu…

Pernah denger bahwa Tuhan mengabulkan doa kita dengan 3 cara:
1.  IYA, Kukabulkan doamu…
2.  TIDAK, karena itu tidak baik bagimu…
3.  Iya, tapi NANTI…karena sekarang tidak baik bagimu…

Balik ke soal kebimbangan saya tadi, mungkin saya emang harus benar-benar MINTA, ikhtiar, mohon petunjuk mana yang terbaik buat saya…Kalo mikir rationalnya sih, saya tau pilihan apa yang harus saya ambil.  Tapi kalau udah menyangkut masalah perasaan, kok kayaknya susah ya yang RATIONAL itu tadi ditindaklanjuti…

Well, anyway, friday is coming again :))
So, have a GREAT weekend wherever you are

Judul postingan gue kali ini uhuy bangeut nggak sih? heheheh…I don’t know why I wanna write about ‘l.o.v.e.’ this time…Maybe because it’s valentine’s day today…Maybe also because in every public places (malls, shopping centre, restaurants) I go nowadays, there are pink and heart decorations everywhere…Maybe because love is a universal theme (that’s what the musicians or singers always say when asked about their never ending love songs)…Or maybe because recently I have to cope with many love stories (my friends’ lho ya…not mine hehehe ;p).  I don’t know…

What’s love anyway..?  For me, love is undescribable in language (itu ngelesnya saya karena nggak bisa jawab apa sebenernya ‘cinta’ hehehe ;p)…One thing I know for sure, I love being in love…Love gives me energy to give my best for the people that I love…

I’m sure every one of us has been falling in love, at least once in our life…Do you believe in ‘forbidden love’?  One of my friends (just say that his name is X) ask me once…Is it wrong to fall in love with someone who already has a boyfriend?   I can’t answer, really…You can’t plan with whom you fall in love, right?  Maybe that’s why it’s called ‘falling in love’ because you never plan it, it comes just like that, and you just fall…So, I guess it’s your right to fall in love with anybody you want, regardless his/her status…

But maybeeeeee, eventhough it is your right, eventhough you can’t control your feeling, I’m sure you CAN control how you react towards that feeling…Ada batasan-batasan yang emang nggak bisa seenaknya dilanggar…Ada komitmen yang seberapa pun kecilnya harus dihargai…Ada perasaan orang lain yang juga harus dijaga…And you have to remember that…

Sama mungkin seperti diskusi saya dengan seorang teman beberapa waktu yang lalu…Soal salah nggak sih jatuh cinta dengan orang yang beda agama…?  Hmmmm…saya speechless ;p  Kalau dibahas di sini akan jadi debat kusir yang nggak akan ada habisnya…Yang pasti, kalau buat saya, you’re the one who live your life…You know how and with whom you will be happy…If it’s worthed to fight for, then go for it!  You just don’t know how it ends until you give it a try, right?  Teman saya itu tanya lagi (cerewet!), terus kalo emang nggak bisa diterusin kemana-mana lagi gimana donk…?  Hmmmm…saya speechless lagi ;p  Buat saya, berani jatuh cinta harus berani juga patah hati…Tapi daripada saya wondering ‘whatifguedulusamadiaya’  tapi nggak berani ngejalanin, lebih baik saya coba jalanin dulu walaupun hasilnya nanti kita nggak akan pernah tau…Sedih memang…Patah hati memang…Nangis sampe bengkak-bengkak memang…Hilang semangat hidup beberapa lama memang…Curhat nggak berenti-berenti memang…Dengerin lagu-lagu Glenn Fredly mulu memang…Makan mulu memang (ini mah nggak patah hati juga memang iya ;p)…

But as we’re all students of life (hei…I like the sentence…that’s why I quote it here ;p), we keep on learning…and loving

Here, I quote a text I got from my friend this morning:

Without LOVE,
    days are:
- sadday
- moanday
- tearsday
- wasteday
- thirstday
- fightday
- shatterday
so be in love everyday…!

…you feel like
    life is playing games on you…

m.a.y.b.e…
    you should just join the game and PLAY !!!

    HAPPY PLAYING

    *hatetomakedecision~asalways*

hei…what’s your new year resolution(s)?  I bet you have one(s)…I have some actually, and as usual being discipline is on my number 1 list, but…huuuummmm…let’s see by the end of 2006 whether I can be discipline or just the same as (many years) before…

About 2005 itself, not bad at all !!! As always, the ALMIGHTY UP THERE always does a GREAT work !!! THANK YOU !!!  Settled down back in Jakarta on january, cida got married on february, started a new job on april, met many new people - be friends with some of them, new environment, learn many new-exciting-yetsomefrustrating- things, has a new niece from cika on august (coming soon one more, btw), able to visit Lao PDR finally, travel to other countries in Asia -only twice for a real vacation (and dating ;p), though.  Other than that?  Hmmmm…many incidents, but better just learned something from them…Everything happens for a reason, right?

For 2006, got some plans, as I told you before…One of them is to help one of my mbaks in Sumba (thats different from Sumbawa ya teman-teman…).  She is  having this community, called SOPAN (Solidaritas Perempuan dan Anak - Solidarity for Woman and Children).  It’s long to describe in details what the SOPAN will do (you can ask me for the brief proposal if you’re interested). 

But briefly, they want to empower the women and children in Sumba.  I wanna help them finding the donation for that.  And since, as always, I’m more concern about the children than the women, I decide to help them mainly for the children empowerment activities. 

Here is the plan:
They want to open a ‘Rumah Anak’ where children can read, play, and do many kinds of activities (watching movies, theater, music, etc.).  Btw, do you know that many Sumbanese can’t read well even they’re already in college?

SO…here is what you can do to help as well:

We need money (for sure…), children books, children movies, toys, VCD / DVD Player, and anything that come across your mind that might be needed in ‘Rumah Anak’.  If you’re interested to donate (money, no matter how much it is, or anything, used things as long as it’s still usable are also OK…), just contact me, ok…

Thank you very much before…
Semoga semuanya dibales sama Yang Di Atas ya…amien…
Maybe we can’t help much, but better than keep complaining on government policies that’s Java oriented, why don’t we do something?  No matter how small it is, right…?

PS:
1.  I will give the donations by March, so you can still donate till that time…
2.  As usual, there will be a report later.  Yang nggak mau namanya disebut, gue tetep nggak bakalan sebut kok…tenang aja…
3.  If you need the proposal, just let me know…
4.  And as usual, I will approach some of you personally hehehee…
5.  Last, sorry for being absent so long (almost 3 year, huh? ) from these kind of activities…Hope I can start again now…